Life Update - word vomit - update

     It's been a while, and it makes me wonder if I am supposed to be a writer. This blog needs to be exciting and more of what people would read but how do I find what y'all like. Who will read me? I have since left my apartment and now live with my parents again which lessens my freedom in so many ways. Even if I'm an adult there are just some things I can't do around my parents, I just can't be myself which is why I originally left and lived on my own. This past year I've been missing a lot of work but it's been due to my health. 

    I was diagnosed with stage two cancer in my ovaries and had to remove them. I am not exploring options for children but not actively, just research-based searching for now. It's a lot to consider, and seeing as how we can't afford rent, how will we afford children? Having a child is expensive, why is adoption so much more expensive?

    I am also writing a memoir of my past two years just so I can process it all because that's the only way I can take a step back from it and look at it. When you are stuck in the middle of the storm it feels calm but you truly have no clue how dangerous it is. 

    I really want to become more creative but I'm unsure and kinda stuck as to where to go. How to let your creativity flow when there is the weight of grief holding you down. It's like the rain and sun with no rainbow. Back to the eye of the storm.

    I was living with my boyfriend and we had to move back out to our parents so we could pay off bills. My medical bills have been stacking non-stop one thing after another. The crazy thing is I get so many likes on my Go Fund Me but I never receive donations anymore. I wonder if it's worth keeping up but eventually someone will think that they can help. No one talks about how hard it is to ask for help but oh my god it's so awkward and weird and people are in your business and it's just weird, but what choice do you have?

On another note

    Would you read a memoir by me? >.< I really want to see if it's worth publishing besides me just writing it out. a lot of me has doubts about this like no one would want to see what I have to say. This is just for me to process the whole cancer bit. Not sure how to promote it but I think it will be interesting if nothing else.

    I'll make a new post describing more of the cancer bit                    

BACK BITCHES

        So it's been a while since my last post. This happens from time to time, I get into a rut and fall behind on my responsibilities and my motivation. I apologize for falling behind. I can't promise this will be the last time but every day I am improving moment for moment. Thank you for your support.  

        Personal Update: Lately I have gotten a job, FINALLY have found a job and it's been such an amazing time these past two weeks! I work taking boxes off an 18-wheeler in a warehouse, organizing, and taking carts full of products out to a floor for night team to distribute on to shelves. It's a TON of work, but I love what I do right now.

          As of my craft, it's been really slow coming. I think that is perfectly okay, it's important to go at your own pace and when your ready. I made a depression spell jar and so far I believe it's working. Took a cleansing bath while also loosening my muscles from working. I added herbs (lavender, rose petals, chamomile, and elderberry,) and a few crystals (blue lapis, turquoise, amethyst, and rose quartz.) The bath along in candle light and guided meditation really got me relaxed before working hard at work and gave me more confidence knowing I could make it through.

        So about a month ago I used manifestation to bring myself into money. Two weeks ago I got an interview and after the last interview question, the interviewer called in the manager then told me I was hired. I fully believe The Universe really brought me to this position and I thank The Universe. 

        I have finally understood my warnings of slowing down. It's a message I'm slowly coming to see in everything around me. Everything I do means from breathing, thinking, moving, taking time for myself, eating, cleaning, to magic. It's still slowly getting there but my brain will eventually realize you can't jump into the unknown without knowing a little tips on how to handle things that may come up.

     

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Some Witchery BS

     Hello there, and welcome to the witchery bullshit I call my blog. Calling all green witches, what is your opinion on weed? Is it helpful, too much, a toxin? A witch once told me it's part of me as a green witch who specializes in nature and flowers. I still don't have my own opinion of it however I do know I like weed. But what person really turns don a good time? It makes me want to learn about the magical properties of weed and what it can do. I've looked in a book that I have for magical herbs and it quotes that the Mary Jane is useful in nausea, anxieties, and other small ailments. 

    I believe every plant herb and spice, everything living has an aid of some sort to something else connected to this world. Just as we connect to the earth by breathing eating and drinking walking and being the earth connects to itself. This is why wolves eat meat and birds eat seeds, It all makes the word go around. If weed is something we take for granted and it is just used for certain things are we being rude to the planet? We've abused the earth and its been nothing but bountiful and plentiful, mother nature is all. 

    I look up now and see how weed has been used in several magical purposes such as connecting with the dead, increasing psychic abilities, and facilitating dream magick, you can click here for the the website I got that from. I would really like to experiment with weed, but at the moment it is not legal o buy where I live. Lets be honest though, I smoke weed or I probably wouldn't be writing this blog or whatever it's called. The only time I really smoke and do anything "witchy" would be when I read cards.

Love Yourself - Confidence Boost

    So I woke up this Sunday afternoon, groggy, tired, and kinda moody. Sometimes you gotta think of the good things that happen next. Stretching, tea brewing, maybe a nice hot shower. Think of the things that will make you feel good. It doesn't matter whatever anyone else thinks. Do you think you like it? Does it bring you joy? Do you think it will better yourself? Then DO IT. The world doesn't wait on you. Nothing can hold you back when you are taking charge in your life.Trust me, the struggle is real but so is success. For me it's driving with the windows down when its nice outside, if its to cold I turn the heater on my feet. It's one of the most amazing feelings when you have a good song just driving with the wind in your hair. 

    Do something today that makes you happy. Find something that you can input into your day that lights up your soul just a little more. You are the best you you can find. Make sure you know that and it will rub off on others. I had a family friend that I've always called her my aunt. She had the confidence a good looking teenage boy has with all the girls googling over. She was known as wise, sociable, sexy, smart, sweet. loving, kind, and so many more things you can think of. I miss her to this day but she drives me to be me because that's what people fall in love with, the real you. And I don't mean romantically, but just you in general. She was loved and you are too when your silly quirks come out. That stupid snort that slips, the weird noise that happens when you yawn, the way you're clumsy. Flaws aren't flaws. They are you. Embrace them and show it off. Go on you beautiful thing. Strut.

How to Implement Wictcraft Slowly

    So don't think of me as very knowledgeable, but I have a few things that I try to do daily. I journal and read tarot, I meditate, I burn incense, personally I don't pray to someone but you can if that's something you choose; I keep religion out of my craft. If you're into crystals, maybe you meditate with them, but once a day try to include whatever feels right into your day. It is okay i you mess up, we aren't perfect by any means.

    Begin reading books, watching you tube videos, and investing time into other ways of earning what you are interested in! I started with going to a metaphysical shops after researching basic terms, looking around for incense, crystals, books, jewelry, cards, singing bowls, wands, and so much more! Most shops are very open minded and are there to help you find things and answer questions you need help understanding. Very good community that Iv'e gotten into!

     Realizing there are ways to help yourself without a pill or just common illnesses are so much easier and besides you gotta admit, its pretty cool making your own solution specific to you. Flowers draw my attention immediately. The first thing that comes up is how to create teas and also how to use other herbal plants to make the best blend! One of the first things I learned is what was my element. I am still trying to understand how nature itself is an element but I radiate in the sun! I love the and and trees when the wind blows and when the rain falls. Sometimes I honestly believe I could live outside with some temperature adjusting. Getting to know your elements and learning how to work with them is sometimes the easier way of learning since it will come natural to you. 

    Keeping some kind of journal will help you learn what you need to know as well. I like to keep several different books right now to keep everything organized. I've got my tarot book, my journal, and a leather book I keep for spells, knowledge of tools, and more!

Thank you for reading, leave a comment below on things you youd add to you beginner set

Welcome!

     Hello, we are on my first post! YAY! The beginning to a new beginning and a world of exploration. A little about my background, I grew up in a rough neighborhood, went to Christian school and I thought my life was on track doing my best in school. Sixth grade came and I was put in pubic school, by seventh grade we were moving our divorced family to the suburbs in with my grandma. The middle school I was put in in my district gave me my first friend Hailey. High school came and high school went. I have a history of depression that really brought me down. Right now I am doing my best to get my HISET testing out of the way which is another form of the GED.

    This brings me to now being 21 and finding my own path I want to follow in life! Herbalism and witchcraft stand out to me like a sore thumb. It pulls me in so much, I love reading about it all, and asking questions that come up on the daily. I currently have an online mentor and a good friend by my side helping me in this way of life. I have read book, blogs, web posts, pintrest, friends, and ths is all still jsut the beginning! I wecome you to follow along as I create a way of life.